My answer is yes and no. My adult children know that my childhood was difficult and traumatic but I spared them the details. There are so many painful parallels in your story, Brenda, with my life story. I also was traumatized as a child. and I'm sure my brain didn't develop normally, and I also have mental health issues, although it looks like not to that extent as you do. In some sense I agree with your daughter Rachel. I don't want to traumatize my children, and I don't want myself to re-experience my traumas again. I try not to think about my traumatic childhood too much and too often, and I most certainly don't want to write about it at that level of detail that might be traumatic for my children, and for myself. And, like you, I'm also a downer, a negative person, probably for the same reasons as you are, but I think I've managed to get out of my negativity up to some extent. It didn't happen by itself. My children helped me a lot by saying more or less what your daughter Rachel told you. They also don't want my negativity to spill over their lives. They also want to protect their mental health. They say, please don't share your negative thoughts and anxiety with us. When they say that, I say thank you, and please keep reminding me to restrain my negativity and keep my anxiety to myself. I'm grateful to them for their help, and I think it works.