I think it is a true blessing, Yana. As painful as it was for you to grow up in your "unusual" family with the unfortunate dynamics of the relationships between your parents, I think it is such a great gift that they managed to preserve the family bonds, and they still care about each other. And about you, of course. Life is not perfect, and now you know that not everything is black and white, and I'm glad you can visit your parents and still share family bods with them