After reading many of your M stories, Leonard, I think you are tired and worn out by all the struggles and tragedies you had to endure in your life. I think you had way too many of them, and now you feel like you finally got some time to catch your breath, recharge you batteries and hopefully enjoy the years to come. Maybe in a few years from now you will feel more attuned to the idea of taking on a new responsibility of being a grandfather, or maybe not; it is impossible to predict. Life evolves in strange and mysterious ways, but for now, you feel like it is not "your cup of tea", and I can see why...